Black Hole

"Excuse me while I feed on you."

Have you ever felt like a ghoul's been having your pancreas for lunch? I know I do. This came about after much introspection over the major events and turning points for the past 2 years. It always starts small but insidious. These in turn influence and triggers certain reactions and belief systems that permeates our core being. Eventually our soul and energy get corrupted and turns negative. This in turn reinforces negativity and then... Welcome to the Dark Side!
(Dun Dun Dunnnnn!!!)

- Melodramatic but I like it. *wink*

On a side note, yesterday I went to NUS NWP for some training. It was fun and I enjoyed myself tremendously especially when I was coaching the freshies. During sparring, I squared off against Jess and the poor girl got thrown by me twice. Despite the absence of many peers, it was quite enjoyable. The training rejuvenated me as the environment and the people were quite positive. Then it struck me.

Some people are bastions of light. You know these people. They are the centre of activity. They are fun, cocky, popular, confident, etc etc. For all their human weaknesses, others get drawn to them as inexplicably as a moth gets drawn to the light. As for those negative ones, not many others want to associate with them. I mean, who wants to sit with a ghoul?

Some "Sith Lords" I personally know would say this kind of things. "Aiyah, I always so suay... nothing ever turns out well for me... go toilet also will fall inside the shithole...". These 2 years I have been going out with people like that. Nothing I say or do will change their perceptions. And what's worse, they are feeding on my energy. Events like my traffic accident, work issues, etc have triggered my demise into the Dark Side. It doesn't help that my work place is a giantic black hole itself. I recognise this and I'm going to stop it right away.

They aren't evil, just incapable of recognising the fact that they are energy draining. Avoiding them isn't the answer obviously. But I have to build up my arsenal first.

Wooden Stake, Check.
Garlic, Check.
Assorted Talismans, Check.
Turn Undead Spell, Check.
Spare Pancreas, Check.

Hmm.... can someone get me access to a fellowship of light?
;o)